I. CAN. DO. THIS

Here's the thing. Wake boarding. Water Sports in general. They are things I have never been able to do. I have gone boating many a times in my life and always try wake boarding and have never been able to get up. It got to the point where I just believed it was one of those things I would never be able to do. I knew last week that I was going to go boating, so I was kind of mentally preparing myself to fail again. So SAD! But I felt that it was pretty much my reality. Then one day...

The one day... I was just searching for a podcast and a title caught my eye, "Positivity is a Superpower". That hit me like a ton of bricks. It was like an aha moment for me. As soon as I read that, it was like a mental shift happened in my brain. I just started thinking that no matter what, I am going to stay positive, despite all the intrusive thoughts in my head. Back to the wake boarding. I started thinking that for the past however many years, I have been telling myself that I CAN'T do it. I thought no more! From this moment on, I am telling myself, I CAN do this. Super cheesy, I know, but it helped me so much! It turned my nerves and fears into excitement. Next thing I know I am in the water, boat ready to go, all I have to do is say "HIT IT!"

"HIT IT!!" The boat takes off, I feel the power of the boat start to pull me and suddenly I let go of the handle. I failed. Wow. All this positive talk and it didn't work, I thought. NOPE! I can do this. I grabbed the rope again, and just kept saying the words, I can do this, I can do this. I yelled hit it, the boat took off, and next thing I know I'm up. I'm out of the water and riding behind the boat. Looking at everyone on the boat cheering me on. I was up for about 30 seconds before plummeting face first into the water. After that it was like an addiction. I couldn't stop.

I can't describe the feeling I had the first time I got up. It sounds silly, but I was so shocked, so proud of myself. I proved to myself that I could do something I thought would never happen.

The power of positivity is real. I hope my fun cheesy story helps you see that. If we start telling ourselves positive things, then they will happen. It can be hard when you are in the lowest of lows, but just start somewhere small. Start by telling yourself, I feel good today, even if it is not true. I didn't fully believe myself when I kept telling myself I could do it. But I let the hope and belief overpower the doubt and fear. You guys CAN do whatever it is you put your mind to. You are awesome.

Yours truly :)